Interesting

So this is the post thats been swimming inside my head..."should I do it"?, "should I not"? I figure I don't have anything to lose. After all, this is MY blog, and this is where I should be able to write about anything at all. I kinda feel the need to "defend myself" per se, even if there's no need to do so.

But this is the thing. It turns out a blog that still happens to be on my blogroll, and that I should remove, went password protected because of ME! Its towards the top. I find it quite amusing really, but this girl obviously has the right to do whatever she wants to do, because after all, its HER blog. My irritability factor is that she can read my blog and I can't read hers. About my children and about my life. Now, if I was threatening this girl's life or "stalking" her, hey, I'd understand. And I could always move my blog and password protect it myself. The thing is... I'm really a nice person! Really, I am!

But truly, she's bad-mouthed me before. Her and I became friends , in real life, a few years ago. Its actually because of her that I got into blogging. I didn't even know what a blog was at the time. She hosted me for awhile, and I finally started up my own. Like most people who are friends, we've had fights. We got in a really bad one the first time and didn't speak for a few months....I didn't have my own blog at the time, and she really said some nasty things about me on hers. And I'm not perfect, I'll admit it. When she contacted me a few months later and wanted to be friends again, I relunctantly agreed... and things were great until she moved. It was a difficult time for her and I thought I was there for her as a friend. As upset as I was of her moving, I listened and supported, or so I thought. Distance proved to be too much though. I suggested at one point that she possibly didn't want to stay friends with me, and that was it! You're okay as long as you don't cross her, let me just say that.

We've had lots of good times. I'm the type of person to move on, and not hold a grudge, and right now I don't. I'm just sorry she didn't feel our friendship was worth holding on to. I was closer to her than my own family, at times. She felt like a family member, her child like a niece or nephew, her husband like a brother-in-law. But with one simple uncertain question it was gone. I thought to write this post, because after all that we had been through, she hates me this much to go to all the trouble of password protecting her blog.

Now, I know, I know... its her blog. People have many reasons for doing it, and its their right. But I'm not a bad person. I'm very friendly, relatively easy-going, a good mother, a good friend, and a good person. I can be bitchy and opinionated too. I think all of us can be at times. I'm just trying to be the best mother and wife that I can while making a few friends online.

So, if anyone out there has read anything about me, please don't believe it unless its good. Just remember, there are two sides of every story. And please refrain from any nasty commenting. Thanks!